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Post by *Lore~Lowell* on Feb 24, 2006 23:14:58 GMT -5
Not anymore. He went home.  I don like it when he goes home. |
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Post by Ale Was Here on Feb 24, 2006 23:43:00 GMT -5
aww *hugs*
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Post by *Lore~Lowell* on Feb 24, 2006 23:47:50 GMT -5
Yeah. I get lonely again.....
O...M...G...I am PISSED.
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Post by Ale Was Here on Feb 24, 2006 23:58:46 GMT -5
why what happened?!
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Post by *Lore~Lowell* on Feb 25, 2006 0:19:36 GMT -5
My school.
Okay...I'm not a very social person at school. I don't talk a lot. Of course, my school has noticed it. It's a small private school, where every kid is dealt with individually and given their special needs and everything. The 'head director' (a.k.a. principal), Kathy, talks to kids about things....she talked to me when I'd started cutting myself.
But they notice that I'm not really making any friends at the school. And I don't really feel like I need to. I've got Dom, Jean, and Andrea. But my mom keeps pushing me to make friends inside school, be more social, be someone I don't fucking WANNA BE, goddammit! When I told her about you, Ale, she said it was great that we had the connection we had, but she wished that I would "make more friends at my school, in the same state even". I was pissed when she said that.
So she went to a parent-teacher meeting, and she actually brought up the fact that I wasn't making friends.
So now Kathy's going to talk to me about it. And she's going to try to help me make friends.
I dont want any friends. I've got more than I could ever want. I've got Dom, Jean and Andrea, but I also have everyone HERE, and although I can't see their faces, I still know that they're my friends.
God, why is everyone trying to fucking FORCE me into things as personal as this?!
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Post by Ale Was Here on Feb 25, 2006 0:26:27 GMT -5
you shouldnt be telling ME this. wait no! you SHOULD be telling me this! and im happy you are!!!!!!!! but you should tell kathy too. explain to her no one has the right to force you and try to change you. you have rights (wow we just talked about this) tell her what you told your mom, tell her what you told me. tell her that it doesnt bother you that shes trying to help you make friends, its just bothering you that they are trying to force and change you
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Post by *Lore~Lowell* on Feb 25, 2006 0:38:38 GMT -5
And I did. So my mom stopped griping at me about it. But then when she asks me how things are at school, she asks if I've made any friends that I really "click" with. And then she gets this look when I tell her no. Like I've disappointed her. And I try NOT to let it get to me, but it fucking DOES. Sometimes...*sigh* Don't call me stupid....but sometimes...I want her approval on certain things, just to make sure I'm doing it right. I wanna...make her proud sometimes...and that look...it hurts.
And my school...I know it's just trying to help....and I don't know how to say it to Kathy without it sounding like a discreet, "Fuck the fuck off, I'm fucking fine."
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Post by Ale Was Here on Feb 25, 2006 0:49:44 GMT -5
whats wrong with a discreet fuck off? its good actually. very.
tell your mom what you just told me. tell her you wanna make her proud and that your sorry and it hurts you but you really are happy just the way you are. and the only thing that would make you happier is coming to see me...(sorry im not trying to sound conceited i just really need you to be with me!)
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Post by St. Jimmy on Feb 25, 2006 10:08:15 GMT -5
thats stupid.. they shouldn't force you into making friends if you are perfectly happy with the way things are.
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Post by carkey on Feb 25, 2006 10:10:35 GMT -5
I know they're probably just trying to help, but it's really none of their business at all.
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I don like it when he goes home.
'Cause like...duh. 
You know, I'm in your band too Bill
