Post by rockandrollmyworld on Jan 11, 2006 20:28:30 GMT -5
Well, right now it's not one person or one thing that's bothering me, so I thought I would write a "Damn them all to Hell" list.
School: I have so much work right now that I am having what I deemed a slow mental unraveling because it is like having one mental breakdown followed by another followed by another for like five days now...it's not cool. Not to mention that progress reports come out this weekend and I'm not doing as well as last trimester.
Internet: last night, in the middle of typing something to Ale, my internet stopped working, and so I was unable to do a homework assignment that involved going to some website. Even though I told the teacher what happened and why I didn't do it, they still gave me a zero and refuse to let me do it now..and it counts as the equivalent of two tests (tests count as 50% of the grade)...so there goes my grade *waves good bye to grade as she flushes the toilet*
Mothers: My mom has been getting on my case for everything and anything. This morning she spent 20 minutes yelling at me because I wasn't wearing my contacts, even though I told her that because I only got 3 hours of sleep last night, my eyes hurt and contacts would just irritate them more. She got mad at me because I didn't answer her because I was reading a book for school and so I didn't hear her say anything...and after explaining, she decided that I was just being rude to her, so she's threatening to take away my computer and my music (and she actually would) until I "right my ways"
Friends: Well, my best friend now hardly talks to me and when we do talk it's completely empty and meaningless. For example: "I like your shirt" "Thanks, I like your belt" followed by an awkward silence and her new friend walking up and her walking away without saying anything to me. When I talked to a couple of my other friends about it, they informed me that I was being paranoid and needed to stop obsessing over it. I realize that we both have other friends, but we always did, and now she befriended someone this year and so she doesn't talk to me anymore.
Acting: Acting is my life, my air...you get the point. but for some reason I, if I even get a role, get a crappy shitty role that involves nothing......one of my friends was directing a play and he promised that I would be one of the characters, but up went the cast lists and guess whose name wasn't listed next to that character...oh yeah, that's right, mine! and I do understand that someone may have had a great audition, so he thought she deserved the role, but he shouldn't have promised me the role if he wasn't positive he was going to give it to me....
Me: Now I'm disappointed in myself, which isn't helping matters, because I got angry and stressed and worried so I cut, and I hadn't cut for like two months which was a record for me...so now I feel even worse because if I couldn't stay away from a razor, then how am I going to be able to do other things....?
*cries tears of frustration* Well...not as bad as some of the things I've read, but it's all quite suffocating really.
School: I have so much work right now that I am having what I deemed a slow mental unraveling because it is like having one mental breakdown followed by another followed by another for like five days now...it's not cool. Not to mention that progress reports come out this weekend and I'm not doing as well as last trimester.
Internet: last night, in the middle of typing something to Ale, my internet stopped working, and so I was unable to do a homework assignment that involved going to some website. Even though I told the teacher what happened and why I didn't do it, they still gave me a zero and refuse to let me do it now..and it counts as the equivalent of two tests (tests count as 50% of the grade)...so there goes my grade *waves good bye to grade as she flushes the toilet*
Mothers: My mom has been getting on my case for everything and anything. This morning she spent 20 minutes yelling at me because I wasn't wearing my contacts, even though I told her that because I only got 3 hours of sleep last night, my eyes hurt and contacts would just irritate them more. She got mad at me because I didn't answer her because I was reading a book for school and so I didn't hear her say anything...and after explaining, she decided that I was just being rude to her, so she's threatening to take away my computer and my music (and she actually would) until I "right my ways"
Friends: Well, my best friend now hardly talks to me and when we do talk it's completely empty and meaningless. For example: "I like your shirt" "Thanks, I like your belt" followed by an awkward silence and her new friend walking up and her walking away without saying anything to me. When I talked to a couple of my other friends about it, they informed me that I was being paranoid and needed to stop obsessing over it. I realize that we both have other friends, but we always did, and now she befriended someone this year and so she doesn't talk to me anymore.
Acting: Acting is my life, my air...you get the point. but for some reason I, if I even get a role, get a crappy shitty role that involves nothing......one of my friends was directing a play and he promised that I would be one of the characters, but up went the cast lists and guess whose name wasn't listed next to that character...oh yeah, that's right, mine! and I do understand that someone may have had a great audition, so he thought she deserved the role, but he shouldn't have promised me the role if he wasn't positive he was going to give it to me....
Me: Now I'm disappointed in myself, which isn't helping matters, because I got angry and stressed and worried so I cut, and I hadn't cut for like two months which was a record for me...so now I feel even worse because if I couldn't stay away from a razor, then how am I going to be able to do other things....?
*cries tears of frustration* Well...not as bad as some of the things I've read, but it's all quite suffocating really.